...A week and a half and it'll be time to really go home...

So Austin hasn't treated me so badly after all (though UT physics is another story entirely !)... and again the bulk of my summer has passed by faster than I've figured out what I want to make of it.

Summer's always been time to think for me, and even though I've felt a lot busier during this one, that part hasn't been any different.  Again, career and future has been a constant topic of thought these past few months, especially with physics and OAT study on my plate.  Sometimes,  I don't know why I'm struggling through these science classes that I don't necessarily really enjoy all that much.  I've always wanted to do hands-on healthecare...medicine, dentistry, optometry...something, but I can't help the feeling at the back of my mind that maybe I could be using interests and even gifts in other areas I'm more suited for...reading, writing, analysis.  The thought has crossed my mind more than once to take the LSAT sometime, but I've always just thought of myself being happier later on, as the practical person that I am, doing something that is, to me, more tangibly purposeful, providing for and ensuring the physical well-being of people. I'm not really sure where I'll end up, but hopefully, I can trust enough to not worry so much in the meantime.

Speaking of meantime, I've been making visits in between tests and homework to see beautiful friends in sugarland and plano and spending time w a few summer school and summer austin playmates.

Sugarland Visit

Fred injury, House of Bowls dinner with the SL crew, Galleria and Rice Village with Zane n James, Star Snow Ice share with Justine, Kelley visit, and slumber party with Best Host aka Twinkie Mich and Roomie Lainey!
(not pictured: Devil Wears Prada and long-trip talks w Kathy! EDIT: and saved again by wonderful tiffuhknee! i DID get to see two cutie SL sg girls too and I am very embarassed for forgetting to mention that highlight and for not having my camera when I saw them! <3 tiff and steph!)

cute girlies

Summer 06 (in Austin) coming to an end...

i don’t think ive written a “serious” entry in a while now.  describing events and posting pictures has been quicker…easier.  it doesn’t really feel like april.  too fast.  rush rush rush – slowing down hasn’t been given time to happen.  right now being an upperclassman doesn’t really sound all that appealing. times goes on and on.  i forget what ive put off for today until tomorrow and remember too late what id forgotten yesterday.  there are things to think about and people to see…

ive had such a mix of emotions these last few weeks – from major and career panic to calm to questioning to peace to exhaustion to happiness in friendship to frustration in my own abilities in school or serving or even in being a good friend.

By request of miss carrie nie, select sg activity pictures have been uploaded. 

Creative date and Tiffany TH's sneaky brithday surprise . could these girls be any cuter?

do you have those moments that change your life, that you never forget, and maybe scar you for a while at least, if not forever?  you know, those relationships, moments that change you , your life, your worldview, of people, of friends – being hurt, humiliated, angry, upset, being somebody else, so different from now.  and you think it never comes back when its over, but a word, event, mention, thought, and you realize things aren’t always that easy.

 friends come and friends go, but how important is it to live in the moment when things don’t stay in the past?  

Sophomore girls, bible reading, fruit-roll up chewing

i don’t know what to do with myself.  im prideful in being used to having great things expected of me, successful things, accomplishments, results, awards.  its not even the things i can do that have mattered.  it’s the things people think i can.  i have trouble dreaming of less than perfect.  what am i really passionate about?  or maybe more importantly, what do i care about most?

Sg Leader Bday Fun

Sophomore Janie friends, Kelley blows bubbles, Ariel and Justine time...

what kind of impact is in my words?  do i dare believe that people listen, that my opinions and thoughts play a significant role in swaying my friends, in the decisions they make and situations they face.  am i careful of what i am saying?  strong in where i stand?

  Another birthday dinner…

Sisterly love, celebrating another year of friendship, Debby's chocolate cake

i love feeling like i can take on the world.  being 20, 21 does that to you.  so many doors are opened, and i hate that there are some i have to close.  i don’t want to lose this feeling of being on the brink of something great and amazing and unexpected – life.  10, 20 years from now and ill still be living, reeling from decisions i make today.  it’s a powerful feeling.

Health Advice

No exercise + endless computer games = pot belly

relationships, friendships matter because people matter.  love is a big word wrapped within four little letters.  we live because we feel. we feel because we have the capacity to love.

April 11, 2006...